Wednesday, February 10, 2010
@ 5:11 AM
Everything has changed, yes i know myself that i have also changed. But not for the better. in fact i think i have changed for the worst. I realised i have become from extroverted to introverted, no longer talk to people who used to be close to me ever since ‘that particular day’. Why have I become like this? I have no idea also. During this period of time before I change, things that happened to me are: people come and go in my life, trying to take charge of my life, pressuring me to do smth that i’m not willing to do so. (even though i have shouted till no voice that this is NOT what I want.) However, did anyone bother to ask me first or even listen to me first? The truth is: No. Fine, if this is what you adults want for me. I shall grant you all your wish. Just be prepared that I will end up unhappy (:
Sometimes, i really feel like letting all these come out of me. But i guess, forget it. I just have to be happy in front of you adults presence and you all will assume that i’m satisfied. So, don’t come complaining to me that I have kept mum about this and that. Because, in the first place, you all don’t even bother to listen to me. So what for, reprimanding me about it. All this while, I have been living in a shitty life, working continuously, got hurt by some ignorant people. I mean, come on you want lie to me ah? I welcome you, but you’re not the first person. Ps: FUCK IT SERIOUSLY, why do you ever make this stupid mistake by thinking that i’m someone who you can climb over my head and hurt me! GET THIS CLEAR! Just because i don’t expose your lies, doesn’t mean that i don’t see it. I am just tolerating with it. Wait till i don’t wish to tolerate with it anymore, you shall see what will happen to you!
Ok glad that the Robinsons sale is over! Such a relief! Got to know these 2 guys: Nicholson and Jiajun. They really took care of me. I’m grateful for that (: When I was not well while working, they quickly sent me home. Aft work, expo is super remote esp we have to walk a long way to the bus stop. They will rather take public transport w me than their car. During work, there has been a lot of gossips about me and him. I know and i try to ignore it. JJ, stop stressing on the point that you feel pity cos i don’t think it will be possible for us bcos of the thing that is bothering us. (A side note from me to Hafsah(my colleague): Thanks girl for your encouragement about that!) At last, I really thank GOD for letting me meet these 2 funny guys that make up my day and I hope that “you” didn’t discover that i acted a bit awkward everytime i call you my didi (: Haha so lets just remain this way! (:
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
@ 5:11 AM
Everything has changed, yes i know myself that i have also changed. But not for the better. in fact i think i have changed for the worst. I realised i have become from extroverted to introverted, no longer talk to people who used to be close to me ever since ‘that particular day’. Why have I become like this? I have no idea also. During this period of time before I change, things that happened to me are: people come and go in my life, trying to take charge of my life, pressuring me to do smth that i’m not willing to do so. (even though i have shouted till no voice that this is NOT what I want.) However, did anyone bother to ask me first or even listen to me first? The truth is: No. Fine, if this is what you adults want for me. I shall grant you all your wish. Just be prepared that I will end up unhappy (:
Sometimes, i really feel like letting all these come out of me. But i guess, forget it. I just have to be happy in front of you adults presence and you all will assume that i’m satisfied. So, don’t come complaining to me that I have kept mum about this and that. Because, in the first place, you all don’t even bother to listen to me. So what for, reprimanding me about it. All this while, I have been living in a shitty life, working continuously, got hurt by some ignorant people. I mean, come on you want lie to me ah? I welcome you, but you’re not the first person. Ps: FUCK IT SERIOUSLY, why do you ever make this stupid mistake by thinking that i’m someone who you can climb over my head and hurt me! GET THIS CLEAR! Just because i don’t expose your lies, doesn’t mean that i don’t see it. I am just tolerating with it. Wait till i don’t wish to tolerate with it anymore, you shall see what will happen to you!
Ok glad that the Robinsons sale is over! Such a relief! Got to know these 2 guys: Nicholson and Jiajun. They really took care of me. I’m grateful for that (: When I was not well while working, they quickly sent me home. Aft work, expo is super remote esp we have to walk a long way to the bus stop. They will rather take public transport w me than their car. During work, there has been a lot of gossips about me and him. I know and i try to ignore it. JJ, stop stressing on the point that you feel pity cos i don’t think it will be possible for us bcos of the thing that is bothering us. (A side note from me to Hafsah(my colleague): Thanks girl for your encouragement about that!) At last, I really thank GOD for letting me meet these 2 funny guys that make up my day and I hope that “you” didn’t discover that i acted a bit awkward everytime i call you my didi (: Haha so lets just remain this way! (:
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The rocker!
Heidi Heng. 10.11.92
Iced coffee, Balloons, Bubbles, Blythe dolls, Chocolates, Disneyland, Flowers, The seven adored jiemeis, Travelling, Rainbow, Sunset, Star gazing
